not anymore

i have this feeling that we're not like before anymore. remember those moments before? maybe you cant recall back but i am. wish we were the same but i dont think so and to be honest im not that excited anymore. i used to be a crazy one just like you but im not anymore. i still have to take it but i hate it at the same time :( hate this so much. i wish i have the power to turn back the clock but its so impossible. stop dreaming dreaming and dreaming. i realized im being selfish nowadays but you still accept me the way i am. and i think thats the best for us. you lied to me but i just close my eyes and imagine nothing happened.just forget it. let me think this alone.


i wish im not here but still there. sometimes i feellike im a doll but i accept it as a compliment. i cant have what i want all the time thats for sure but how about you? think back. i hope you feel the same way too. im not saying i dont love you anymore but i just feel we're not the same. i hate fighting thats why i keep my mouth shut. im saying all this just want you to know what i feel. so dont take this too serious. lets everything be our memories and now is the time for us to look foward. theres so many important things that we have to think so just forget it !


and,

HAPPY FIFTYFIVE MONTHS ANNYVERSARY MY LOVE !

*lets just pray the best for us, Amin*

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